Torn

, originally uploaded by amy.joy.

Today I had to make a really tough decision. It wasn't what I wanted to do, but what I knew in my heart was the right thing to do. However, because I was being kind of stubborn about the issue, and convincing myself that I would be fine, it took me till the last minute to make the decision. Now, because of that, I have made one of my best friends upset and that really hurts me. I just feel really bad and there's no way around, over or under it, only through it.

Today this picture embody's how I feel. I am at work, so I have to smile, have a presence of mind and be polite, but really inside I am sad. Maybe one of these days I will mature up and start making decisions that are thought through rather than one's based on personal pride.
Maybe one day....
Only time will tell.